~*The Kitty's Ramblings*~

how dare anyone besides Master tell me what i should do?? so now i cant talk to my best friend and niece because of something that has to be done?? Fuck this..so i have no right to be upset about this and thats final? No..i have EVERY right to be pissed about some guy telling me through her that i am not allowed to talk to her anymore?? and so i get upset and raise my voice. and what..im not allowed????? I WILL do that when i get upset..im human and i have human frailties like everyone else..one of which is a quick temper. Especially when it happens to ppl that i love. so there i am. pissed and i cant even vent?? i allow others like my neice to vent and im not allowed to?? im not allowed to take some time to calm down and then go talk to her? NO im not i guess. i really hate that. so there you go folks. I am not allowed to be human.

OK i REALLY need to get this out. Its been in my head too long and its been renting space. I really dont care if Lonestarraiser and histeria find out about this...here it is the truth of what REALLY happened...

I recall a time when lone and teria asked me to help with Teria's training. what was funny is that she was asking for help..cause she knew i was in a real time relationship with a wonderful Master. What i thought was funny is that Lone decided to accept my help...and you know what? she got better, although when the chips came down, teria was nothing more then a spoiled brat that had no clue...she put her status as a wife before anything and let jealousy get in the way..and they want a poly relationship? HAH! she couldn't even handle her jealousy with jess as being sl collared to lone. it was funny. Then to top it all, she was and most likely is trying to top from the bottom with her "master" to get what she wanted and wants. I watched their D/s relationship fall apart and become a play thing and nothing else...Teria spent ALL her time on SL spending money like water and forgetting what a real life was. all she did was stay on second life...24/7...and dishonored her "master" time and time again with her actions with others. Not even a second thought to even ask for permission to buy things on second life. Oh wait. Lone had no clue how to be a master cause he asked MY Master to help him learn how to control a slave/submissive. that was funny...Master just shook His head after that was done and said...thats no way to have a slave...Teria was being treated as a SLAVE not a submissive...and he told me that she was a submissive..i thought that was strange..

When i rented the house for all, they did nothing to help...and teria lied through her teeth about the amount of money she put into the game after she got a job. Wed help her out all the time with lindens and gifts, spending my limited amounts of money. they didnt even thank me for the assistance with the house that i rented...and tryed to walk all over me. it was the last straw when they tried to get me kicked out of the house that i was renting by bitching to the sl landlord. they stabbed me in the back countless times trying to get me to leave "their" home...funny...well it looks like THEY are gone and banned from the house and its the two ppl that supported them through anything..and what did we get? Bitching moaning and complaining. OOOOOH wait...thats all they know how to do.

i have no idea what to write...so ill just say that everything is ok and i am well...so.....there....

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Why is it that damn telemarketers have to call at horrible timing?? Gods! I was so comfortable, laying in bed, slowly waking up when the damn phone started ringing! I think after like 3 times i got a bit irritable. When Master called i even snapped at Him, since there is no caller id in this house. I felt instantly guilty and apologized over and over LOL!  Thats what happens when the phone rings over and over. GR.

Today is movie day. We are going to see Ghost Rider..i cant wait! I used to collect the comics and everything! This is going to be so cool! Ok well, thats all for now. I will update later as the day progresses. bye!

You have been Invited to a BDSM slumber party. The rules are as follows. You are allowed to bring with you 5 items to play with and or share with the party. You may not copy anyone else's answers, but you may alter them to make them different,and when you are finished you MUST tag 5 new people to come to the party. You MAY be tagged more than once, so be creative in answers.

Thank you and a wickedly wonderful day.

So I bring with me...

1. a Tens unit to have electricity fun
2. OK OK another electricity fun: a violet wand
3. assorted collection of needles to decorate each other
4. pony play sets for all
5 a collection of metal tiped floggers

Im tagging:
deidreschmeidre
karirenee
kendell
divineslave
deepdarkfantasy


Thank you, have Fun!!

One last thing, If you have been tagged, repost in a new entry along with your list and your tags!!

Thank you..

I finally went to the place that will do my therapy today. I am to look forward to another assessment and stuff bright and early at 9:30am in March. The lady, (who was very nice in fact) noticed that i was nervous, and a whole ton of personal and painful information flowed out of me like a sieve. Its not like i wanted to chat frankly, but part of me did, so i'm glad that i was nervous. If i wasn't, i wouldn't of been so honest about how i feel. Although my moods were, and are bad today. its like i cant get myself out this funk that i seem to be sinking into. sigh..all i want is to feel normal. although right now, i'm a bit depressed, for some reason, and all i want to do is cry. But thats another journal entry. I'm not ready to talk about that right now. Yes i'm scared. very scared. but i think that should pass..in a few years..or something.

You think that Master will let me slide with the posting today? I really did my post for the day..maybe He will let me...No i don't think so..so here i go. Don't you just love morons that go on and on and on about something that has been dead for a while now? isn't that called insanity? doing things over and over expecting different results? I think so. Its just words on a screen but it still hurts. Trust me. I've been through that before. Why cant people just stop beating a dead horse? it makes them look like the morons..maybe they just cant see that. I don't know...